This week after much inner struggle and contemplation, I have decided to enroll Siddiqah (5) and Hawwa (7) in school. This was one of the hardest decisions that I have had to make since becoming a parent and something that I would have never believed that I actually would do.
Over the last few years it has been a struggle to accomplish much of anything on a daily basis. I spend most of the day when I am not running errands unable to focus on homeschooling but cleaning and breaking up fights. It is frustrating for everyone.
So I no longer feel that this environment is conducive to either the younger children’s nor the older children’s education. I truly feel that they will be happier with their time filled with activities and new friends rather than spending most of their day bored and watching videos at home. I pray that they will not be too far behind academically in school and that there is a smooth transition.
At this point, Jennah has requested to remain at home so I will try and manage with her as well as Hannah and Jamilah plus Isa. Although, both the oldest girls also are begging me to attend school. We are still undecided about where they will go. I just know that I am not capable of providing the level of instruction that they will need in high school in order for them to be prepared for higher education by myself.
When I began homeschooling my oldest, I truly believed that this would last through high school for everyone. Fourteen years later, I realize that I was very naive to think I could do this alone.