Changes Are Coming

This week after much inner struggle and contemplation, I have decided to enroll Siddiqah (5) and Hawwa (7) in school.  This was one of the hardest decisions that I have had to make since becoming a parent and something that I would have never believed that I actually would do.

Over the last few years it  has been a struggle to accomplish much of anything on a daily basis. I spend most of the day when I am not running errands unable to focus on homeschooling but cleaning and breaking up fights. It is frustrating for everyone.

So I no longer feel that this environment is conducive to either the younger children’s nor the older children’s education.  I truly feel that they will be happier with their  time filled with activities and  new friends rather than spending most of their day bored and watching videos at home. I pray that they will not be too far behind academically in school and that there is a smooth transition.

At this point, Jennah has requested to remain at home so I will try and manage with her as well as Hannah and Jamilah plus Isa. Although, both the oldest girls also are begging me to attend school. We are still undecided about where they will go. I just know that I am not capable of providing the level of instruction that they will need in high school in order for them to be prepared for higher education by myself.

When I began homeschooling my oldest, I truly believed that this would last through high school for everyone.  Fourteen years later, I realize that I was very naive to think I could do this alone. 

12 responses to “Changes Are Coming

  1. May Allah make it easy for you all Ameen.
    Don’t feel like you’ve failed my dear sis. Far from it. You looked at your own situation and your children as individuals and based your decision on that mashaAllah. It is evident that you’ve made this decision out of care and love for them and that’s the main thing. Hugs xx

    • Wa alaikum as salaam dear sis, Ameen. I am very sad but the girls are excited so I am trying to keep my head up and fight the guilt.

      I miss you and pray that you and your family are well.

  2. Assalamualaikum Umm Tafari.
    First of all a big hug, might be virtual, but I think you need it.
    Insha-Allah, all goes well for the girls and you.
    I have learned a lot through your journey and I hope you’ll keep posting. Sharing your experiences, HS or not.
    Take care.

    • Wa alaikum as salaam umm sayang, I definitely need a hug! Insha allah, I will continue blogging. We plan on continuing what we already do here. We just need some outside help and motivation.

  3. anonymousmuslimah

    Assalamo alaikum,

    I am looking forward to hearing of their progress inshaAllah.

  4. Assalamualaykum,
    I hope it all goes well for you inshAllah. I think the fact that they want to go means that they have heard good things about school from other kids. This is definitely in your favour, alhamdulillah and should make the transition easier. It probably means the schools are nice places for the kids to be in your area.
    Also, from what I have gathered from your posts American education post 14 years is much more complicated and difficult to navigate than it is over here, so it makes complete sense that you should prefer to have the older ones in school.
    I also hope you will continue to share your family’s adventures with us, inshAllah.

    • Wa alaikum as salaam umm Rashid,
      Well, they also have fun at speech therapy and love their instructor which I think gave them a positive view of school as well.
      I just found out yesterday from a neighbor who is a retired county teacher that they county rezoned elementary schools and our new elementary school is ranked 3 rd best in the county, maashaa allah. Her son is also the asst. Principal at our home high school of which Yahya may attend if other options don’t work out so just that in itself gives me a greater feeling of community:)

  5. Sounds positive 🙂

  6. May Allaah give you the best sis. Aameen

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